Incapable Of Self Acceptance?

Certifiable

I understand that many of you probably think I am crazy, and you know what, I probably am. I have taken so many detours in life that frankly, I am so lost right about now, that a cry for help and direction would definitely be in order. I am broken, lost, confused, and just about anything you wanted to call me would be acceptable. I surrender to the fact that I do not know what I am doing, but my grace and salvation died on a cross many years ago. I am grateful for his love and forgiveness, and frankly what he thinks about me is all that really matters to me.

Gender is not the solution to my problem, pain, and how to redirect it is. I hurt, there is such a deep pain inside of me which I have learned to mask and hide that instead of it being helpful it has created more turmoil than any human can handle. I am good at hiding things, but it has not been helpful in the least. In fact, hiding has created more of a problem than a solution.

When you are younger you rely on your parents to protect you, build you up, and teach you, but when that system fails what are you to do? You learn to self medicate, self stimulate, and create different coping mechanisms that allow you to go on with life.

So where am I today, back to the realization that I can’t be anything other than I was born to be, a female? I can’t fix my problems by changing my gender, pretending I am some strong bearded muscle guy who can take on the world. I know that without direction from my creator, I will continue to aimlessly roam this earth without direction and purpose. I have surrendered to the fact that I can’t do life on my own without his guidance.

I will be gentle with myself, I will take the time to listen deeply to his direction, I will be kind to myself and others because I don’t know how to do my life, what makes me think I can tell others how to live theirs. God is my beacon of light, my King, and redeemer. I want to know more about him, grow to be the daughter he made me to be, and surrender to his every need.

Be kind to yourself and each other, the world is hard enough on its own. Let us find the path of forgiveness and redemption.

Maritza Cummings

Scared But Hopeful

Humbled

Changes

Speaking Our Truth

Here is an interview we did with Jay Campbell

For years, religion and politics have taught us that we have to conform to be accepted. Unfortunately, divisive and suppressive doctrines only serve to further suppress true spirituality. We are on this planet for one reason: to give and receive love. We can’t share love until we truly love ourselves, so anything suggesting our true selves aren’t worthy of love is just holding us back from our life’s purpose. For centuries, we’ve been held back from embracing our happiness in the name of conformity, but it’s time to wake up. In this episode, hosts of the Transition Radio Show Youtube Channel, Mark and Lynna Cummings share their experiences of stepping out of conformity and into their true selves. Three Takeaways - Stop allowing external forces to keep us apart Division is a way to keep us all at a low vibration: when we fight amongst ourselves on the basis of politics or religion, we’re unable to connect with one another through energy. Stop allowing this to happen by actively choosing to love instead of hate. - Aim to understand instead of labeling We have to stop judging one another or putting labels on things. Life is not about categorizing one another, it’s about understanding and loving other beings. - Love is the greatest gift we can give Love is the true answer to everything. Even if we have differences of opinions with others, we have to choose to love and follow the golden rule: treat others the way we want to be treated. Guest Bio- Mark and Lynna Cummings are a married couple and the hosts of the Transition Radio Show Youtube Channel, a show dedicated to discussing real issues and providing real solutions. As a trans couple, Mark and Lynna have had to overcome more than their fair share of discrimination and judgment, but today, they use their YouTube channel to share their truth and to help others. To find out more, visit: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCsgB...

Whats On Your Mind

Going forward Transition Radio Show will begin a segment that will focus on hearing what you have to say. What is on your mind. You can call in or do a short live on camera session. Now more than ever the need for expression, communication, and co-existing is evident. Let us understand one another, no more fighting but instead uniting, its the only way to break free from these chains.   

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If interested in taking part email me at transitionradioshow@gmail.com