WHO WOULD THINK THAT THE REJECTION OF MY FATHER WHEN I WAS IN MY MOTHER'S BELLY WOULD CAUSE PAIN, SADNESS, AND BITTERNESS THAT WOULD LAST ALMOST UP TO MY 40S WHERE GOD STARTED A DEEP WORK OF RESTORATION IN MY BEING OF JOY THAT I AM NOW.
MY FATHER WANTED ME TO BE A MAN AND I (WITHOUT KNOWING IT) WAS TRYING TO PLEASE HIM. AND IT MUST BE ADDED TO THE ABUSE OF MY MOTHER, MADE ME AWAY FROM HER PHYSICALLY AND EMOTIONALLY. THESE WERE DETERMINING FACTORS THAT INFLUENCED THE ATTRACTION TOWARDS WOMEN.
I WAS IN CONSTANT DEPRESSIONS, DESIRES TO DIE, PSYCHOLOGISTS, SIQUIATRAS WHO JUST FILLED ME WITH DRUGS. AT MY 27, AFTER SO MUCH STRUGGLE TO REMOVE THIS DESIRE FOR WOMEN, I HAD MY FIRST LESBIAN RELATIONSHIP THAT LASTED 1 YEAR, WHICH LEFT ME WITH A VERY BAD TESTIMONY BEFORE THE CHURCH WHICH I ATTENDED AT THAT TIME.
I SEEK HELP, BUT THE SCANDAL WAS SO BIG THAT THEY ENDED UP BY EXPELLING ME.
I NO LONGER WANTED ANYTHING WITH GOD, I SUBMERGED IN THE HOMOSEXUAL WORLD FOR 12 YEARS, BELIEVING THAT THIS WOULD MAKE ME IMMENSELY HAPPY, BUT EVERY YEAR MY PAIN AND EMPTINESS WERE MORE UNBEARABLE
GOD BEGAN TO TALK TO ME IN DIFFERENT WAYS, TO SHOW ME HIS LOVE, TO TELL ME THAT HE HAD NEVER FORGOTTEN ABOUT ME. MY REBELLIOUS HEART TOWARDS HIS LOVE MADE ME HAVE AN INCREDIBLE SPIRITUAL EXPERIENCE, WHICH WOULD COMPLETELY CHANGE MY LIFE.
TODAY I HAVE A NEW LIFE, ENTERING A PROCESS OF DEEP HEALING IN THE LOVING HANDS OF GOD, THE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY PARENTS HAS BEEN RESTORED, I SERVE IN A CHURCH THAT HAS TAUGHT ME TRUE COMMUNION WITH OTHER WOMEN AND RESPECT FOR MEN.
GOD HAS CALLED ME TO WORK WITH HEARTS BROKEN AND AFFLICTED BY SEXUAL BREAKAGE AND TO GIVE THEM THE HOPE FOR SALVATION AND TRANSFORMATION THAT ONLY GOD CAN GIVE US.
ISAIAS 61;1 «El espíritu de Dios está sobre mí,
porque Dios me eligió y me envió
para dar buenas noticias a los pobres,
para consolar a los afligidos,
y para anunciarles a los prisioneros
que pronto van a quedar en libertad.
JESSICA ARAYA SERRANO
CORREO: tiemposdemiel@gmail.com
jessi.dara@gmail.com
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